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I was so tired when we got home from the ranch last night, but it was the good kind of tired. My husband, brother and I made the 2.5 hour trip to the monument company to pick up the marker for my parents’ gravesite, then the one hour drive from there to the ranch to… Continue reading It Was a Good Day
read moreSometimes I miss food.
By food I mean Indian food, Thai food, Mexican food, salsa fresca, salads, pizza, pasta, and my homemade bread and soups: tomato, lentil-kale, vegetarian chili. Tortilla chips, potatoes with skins on, sesame seeds, nuts, herbs, and Numb Oil Tofu from Golden Harbour.
I miss eating with others. This genuinely lovely article by Brandon Showalter felt like a knife in my heart:
read more“Why have I been doing this, you ask? And how do I do it in light of such deep and profound differences among us? It’s actually not that complicated. As my past and present ...
Dave was hella funny and brilliantly creative and kinda nuts, with a good heart that just stopped January 11, 2024. We both had comic strips in the Daily Illini in the late 1980’s; his, “Bob ‘n’ Dave,” was clever, hilarious, gonzo, and unpretentiously deep. Much later, as the Duke of Uke, he made “Spider Suite” which I used in my film Seder-Masochism. His was the absolutely perfect voice of Death, and if there is an afterlife I hope he’s simultaneously entertaining and scaring the pants off any souls he meets.
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read moreA poem about connecting with my Ashkenazi heritage.
Today I am a woman.
Today I am a Jew.
Today I have an ailment
my ancestors all knew.
For many generations,
my Fathers’ guts have hurt.
My Mother can’t eat chocolate:
a most unjust dessert.
I gather all my chocolate;
I give it all away.
No more can I digest it,
And I have Crohn’s today.
I feel myself much older
than I have ever known.
Today I have a Crohn’s disease;
Today I am a crone.
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read moreDiagnosis: Crohn’s.
The Autoimmune Empire
has colon-ized me.
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read moreMy dad |
Yes, I take after him :-)
Daddy's Girl |
He passed away in 1998 and I miss him everyday. The grief never really goes away. You try not to dwell upon it constantly. You eventually learn to think of happy memories when you think of them.
One of my happy memories of my dad is when he would return from an out-of-town work trip. In his shirt pocket, there would be a 5 Star candy bar . As soon as we heard him or saw him at the door, we girls would run up to him ...
read moreGrief is a fickle fiend. And totally unpredictable. We have all experienced the loss of a loved one at some point or another. Some a long time ago, and some very recent. There is a difference between mourning and grieving. Mourning is a time period after death, which is the expression of an experience, involving loss, causing grief, occurring as a result of someone’s death. Grief is the response to loss, particularly to the loss of someone that has died, to which a bond or affection was formed. Although conventionally focused on the emotional response to loss, grief also ...
read moreI’m not feeling great. I should probably just end this post right here. But, no, I’ll soldier on. Not because this post is important, it’s not, but because it represents all the things on my to do list and so much that is just life. No one needs to hear my laundry list of “woes”, […]
read moreLaughing with Mom – Photo by John Kelly “Have you dreamt about her?” This was a question a number of people asked after my mother died. But I wasn’t. I hadn’t. In fact I couldn’t remember dreaming about anything or anyone, until this past week. Maybe it was because it was the first Thanksgiving since she […]
read moreSo here’s the thing… I feel a whole lot better when I show up even when I feel awful, even when I feel things are rough and I’m tired, even when I don’t want to. I’ve also learned that showing up anyway is the single best remedy for not continuing to feel that way. Except […]
read moreStitch, put on the design wall, evaluate, consider, take down, add a new element, stitch, put back up on the design wall, take a photograph, consider, have an idea, take down, thread up a new color, take a chance, take a risk, take a breath, stitch and then the tears arrive. Not a few drops […]
read moreThis blog is a reminder of my mother. She was my biggest supporter and commented over the years more than anyone else. It was through this blog that I often kept in touch with her and towards the end it was the one full proof way I knew I could reach her, especially when my […]
read moreThere are moments that feel impossible and others that fly by unnoticed. Mostly I’m exhausted almost constantly, as though a perpetual scrim has enveloped me, making everything feel heavier, cloudier, more difficult to sort through. It’s not terrible, just different. This is grief, I’m told. This morning is one of those heavier moments. Maybe it’s […]
read moreIn 1991 I was transferred from Hyde Park High School to Kennedy High School - a welcome change since Kennedy was a much shorter commute. But it was the first time I ever had white and Latinx students - and this led me to another MA, this one in Multicultural Eduction. But as is true with every group of students I have ever had, I connected deeply with several despite the change in demographics.
In order to teach Jane Eyre, which was part of the Brit Lit curriculum with juniors, I piloted a unit using Warrior Woman (Kingston), Caged Bird (Angelou), Learning ...
read moreI now understand those who quilt for therapy in a loss or pain. These are busy days and I'm having trouble with focus and that "Be still and know that I am God" thing that is so true but often difficult with a million thoughts and memories crowding into my head. I miss my sister yet cannot believe she is gone. I am sad for me and others in our circle of family and friends as she was such a unique and wonderful person, but happy for her as I know she is with Jesus. Put the memories into ...
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